“Friendship can grow from extraordinary
circumstances and flourish with
~ Maria Lehtman
This post is dedicated to everyone who has supported me through life, the universe, and everything!
Life can through some real curve-balls along the way. Roughly 18 months ago I was in the hospital and had no idea that I had partly drifted away from this world. The diagnosis was….well, there was one, and there wasn’t. Pneumonia with a touch of failing immune system that was never identified.
It was uncertain if I would come out of the first three days with my body intact, capable of supporting normal life. I was underweight going into the hospital due to several other issues – and there was significantly “less of me” coming out. However, all my vitals were with me. The universe had decided I was needed.
Douglas Adams, you were right! 42 is the answer
Douglas Adams, my top most inspiration, second only to J.R.R. Tolkien (apologies, Douglas, but he did base the Elven language partly on Finnish), was correct in The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy and the Deep Thought’s (supercomputer not unlike we are creating today) answer of forty-two to the Great Question: of life, the universe and everything. It was precisely at that age my road turned into a direction I had little control over. All my life I had poured energy into reading Sci-Fi, Fantasy, Mystery and Healing books looking for the answer to that same question. I yearned to understand any and all the mysteries between here and eternity.
Little did I know that from the age of 42 some of those answers would come pouring down on me. So much so, that I could create a space opera of my own – if I had the energy. I found myself waking up from dreams and suddenly understanding concepts I had only read about. Mere seconds or minutes of dreams would unravel insights about memories, emotional aspects, energies, healing, related history, relationships etc. And not only as logical paths but with a full spectrum of emotions. I might be completely stunned waking up – trying to emerge from a state of consciousness I felt human beings should not even have to go through.
What we take with us – is fundamentally us. The constant of “I” in everyone
Ultimately the experiences I had, and the time I spent in the hospital several years later, taught me one thing. We are conscious beings, and I know for a certainty that the one thing we will take with us from this journey is “us.” The fibers of who we are – our emotional intelligence, empathy, the spectrum of feelings and experiences from our synergy with others.
My husband jokingly calls me “Marvin” – mainly because the robot in Douglas’s famous sequel tends to be somewhat pessimistic in his outlook. I like to consider myself an optimist in a realist’s outfit – with a tendency and skill to look at trends and potential outcomes. That skill in his mind makes me a “marvinist” because I can sit down and feel like the weight of the universe is upon me. In the end, I brace myself and push on.
“The first ten million years were the worst,” said Marvin, “and the second ten million years, they were the worst too. The third ten million years I didn’t enjoy at all. After that, I went into a bit of a decline.”
Why do I feel like that at times? Well, imagine a world under water. You can hear sounds from miles away, right? You can feel even the smallest ripples from across vast distances. This is humanity, our thoughts, our energies, our actions, and intentions. When I dream, I get into a similar state of collective consciousness.
There is an upside to collective consciousness sensitivity
Through these experiences, I lost mountains of fear. I had battled so many emotions during the years that “nightmares” became a walk in the park to me. Now I actually enjoy having a good challenge. I stopped agonizing over many things in life, like tomorrow. I still plan, but I’m less concerned if the house is in a little disarray, if I’m not on time, if I cannot predict how everything falls into place today. No one can! So why waste the energy on being afraid.
I realized we can save and try to safeguard, control, and plan our entire lives and in hours or even seconds, the course may turn. We have precious lives. Let’s honor them and the time that we have with each other. Our hearts define who we are and what we take with us.
Many thanks to everyone who have accompanied me in my own journey across the universe: my wonderful husband, beautiful sisters & mother – my family -here and in the US, my friends, super colleagues, and networks of creatives including the support of BizCatalyst360 community.
Every day is a friendship day!
“Don’t blame you,” said Marvin and counted five hundred and ninety-seven thousand million sheep before falling asleep again a second later.” ~ Marvin I The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams
Oh, finally – he’s asleep!